This afternoon, I will meet with three professors and find out if I have the go-ahead on my thesis. I haven't been able to sleep and the skin on my arms is in a constant quiver, like the nicotine fit that no cigarette will kill. I'm not really sure how I ended up in graduate school. Any of my longtime friends can tell you how much I detest being in a classroom. They could probably also tell you that my notebooks were more likely to be filled with stick figure Robert Smiths and fictionalized tales about finding love against red-lit club walls. Teachers told my parents the same thing every year, "You're daughter is incredibly intelligent and well-read. Think of what kind of grades she would get if she actually did her homework." Needless to say, the only thing more terrifying than the fact that I got this far is that I could screw it up at any given moment over the next year.
I've been trying, and failing, to get school out of my mind, to make the summer come earlier. My drugs of choice are these two songs. Each of these songs are, in my mind, associated with summer vacation clubbing, of sweating out Valley afternoons while trying to find goth-appropriate, summer-at-the-clubs clothing to wear when Angel and I left the 818 to go meet up with Kar3n, Amy and the rest at Perversion.

Apotheosis "O Fortuna"
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In high school, Apotheosis was not the deification of Roman heroes, but rather the name on the album that my friend Angel and I tried desperately to secure. We were told that it was damn near close to impossible to find the vinyl. Considering that I still don't have a vinyl copy of this, its safe to say that we were not mislead.
I can't recall where I first heard this song, although it was probably during Mars 103.1 FM's short-lived lifespan. The song was released in 1991 and popped up on trance compilations throughout the earlier portion of the decade. Despite its association with all sorts of raviness, "O Fortuna" crossed over into the decidedly un-PLUR goth/industrial realm and maintained some level of popularity for the bulk of the decade, until it was replaced by the "O Fortuna" sample in Apoptygma Berzerk's massive EBM hit "Love Never Dies." (Note to readers: It appears that Apop's album 7 is still available. I humbly suggest getting it.)
If you want a copy of "O Fortuna" to call your own, you can probably track down one of those older trance comps here.

Messiah "Temple of Dreams"
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Like "O Fortuna," this number carried my friends and I through the bulk of our technically-underage club days. The "Did I dream/You dreamed about me" sample comes from This Mortal Coil's Liz Fraser-fronted cover of Tim Buckley's "Song to the Siren," which was a Helter Skelter staple in spite of its lack of a beat. For "Temple of Dreams," Fraser's vocals were tweaked out to the extent that she sounds to be consumed by wonder rather than sadness. Then there's that "Who loves you/And who do you love" bit that could always make us throw our hands into the air before continuing with the train conductor-stomp that one must do while invading an industrial-heavy dancefloor.
Also like "O Fortuna," I could never find a vinyl of this. If you are a cd person, however, you can find used copies Messiah's full-length album, 21st Century Jesus, released in 1994 and containing "Temple of Dreams" on Amazon.